Good news and bad news....

The good news is I have some beautiful pics of our Baby Bear and the family is getting along great.  We've had a few issues with the boys because they want to do certain things outside and it's just not safe with our neighbors. (Another story all together.)

Now for the bad news....we are getting very little sleep.  Our neighbors are throwing parties nearly every night and acting like fools.  They have had fights in our yard and messed around near our van.  So we have to stay up to keep an eye on what is happening.  It is really getting out of control.  When we call the police they don't come out until everything is settled back down.  Worst of all we have watched them smoke dope right in thier front yards.  It's crazy.

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What a day.....

Last night my hubby and I decided to color my hair red.  Turned out great.....looks beautiful.....but now I'm getting an allergic reaction to the dye.  My head itches incredibly  My scalp is actually sore.  And around the edges of my hair you can see huge red marks.  It's terrible.  I am just praying that it doesn't get as bad as it did last time.  The last time I dyed my hair dark I was in the hospital for 3 days because I had such a bad reaction.  I'm trying to stay on my benadryl and claratin to control it, but I don't know if that is going to work.  I just pray that it does or Bill will never let me color my hair again.  I think from now on though we will stick with the blonde.  At least I've never had a reaction to that one.  I just hate having so much gray at a mere 38 years old.  I never pictured myself going gray until I was in my 50's.  So this just sucks.  The next thing I'm going to do to my hair is perm it.  I will have to give it 2 weeks now until I perm it, but I think it will be well worth it.  I am so sick of my hair anyway that it isn't even funny.  I went from waist length hair to hair that doesn't even touch the collar of my shirt.  Ugh.......

I guess today is just going to be a sucky day all the way around.  I have to pick Brett up in half an hour and then I have to get Bill to his therapist appointment.  Grrr.......  Too much to do and EVERYTHING involves me.  No one in this house can do anything without my involvement.  It really sucks.  Right now all I want to do is go to bed.  I got up at 4 a.m. because my head was itching so bad and couldn't go back to sleep.  Now from all the meds I am just exhausted.  Well I guess I'm done with this for today.  I have to go and get some stuff ready for Bill.

Winter...

Well so far it's still cold and nasty out.  I hate the winter months.  I really belong somewhere down south.  Somewhere that doesn't get snow and cold.  I would love to see 80 degrees in the winter and 110 in the summer.  That would be awesome to me. 

Otherwise Roy is doing horrible in school.  Billy is now in his special ed classes and Brett loves school.  That's one out of three doing well.  Kinda sucks.  I wish all three were doing well. 

Last night we went out to the Old Great Wall and Julie's parents were there.  I was sure Jason was going to start trouble.  He just left.  Thankfully.  Since he hates Roy for some reason I thought for sure he would start something.  Him and Tammy are just assholes about everything concerning Roy and Julie.  They are going together and it's not like Jason and Tammy are going to stop them.  They tried that and it lasted all of 2 days.  What idiots. 

As far as I go....I was out of my meds for 3 weeks and now I am back to being depressed and manic at the same time.  Not a good combination.  I can't sleep well...I'm always bitchy.....I am always tired.  It sucks.  I really hate my life right now.  I know it is just the depression, but it feels like so much more. 

The closer we get....

Well it's almost Thanksgiving and everything has gone wrong.  First we discovered lice last Wednesday.  Naturally we treated it that day.  Come Saturday we discover that there are still lice in the kids and I.  So we go through the whole mess again.  So now I have done over 30 loads of laundry since Wednesday, I have de-loused twice and I am cleaning for Thanksgiving Day.  This is driving me nuts.  We actually went to the point of cutting EVERYONE'S hair.  I actually have short hair now.  That just pisses me off, but it had to be done.  At least Bill cut it decent and I can curl it and make it look cute.  The back is a little too short for me and a little choppy, but overall it looks good. 

Now I have to finish the laundry and keep cleaning for Thanksgiving.  My dining room is currently trashed and I am looking forward to having it clean for Thanksgiving Day.  It's going to take a lot of work to get that room in shape now since everything got put in there during the de-lousing.  I also have all the boxes in there from my computer so those have to find a new home.  I'm keeping the computer box just in case I need it for anything.  The printer box and the other boxes can go to the garbage for recycling next week.  Otherwise I might just gather up all the recycling and take it to Billy's school to be recycled.  Either way it's going in the recycling bin.  The cleaning and fixing the brakes on the van have to be done tomorrow.  I'm loving that.  I will finally have decent brakes again!  Right now the brakes are rubbing steel on steel.  I'm actually afraid of driving it right now. 

I may just keep the kids home for the 2 days they would have gone to school this week due to the lice.  That would mean my cleaning gets done on Tuesday and my running gets done on Monday.  That would actually be a little easier on me for this week.  I just hope we don't end up with any more appointments this week.  I don't think I have time for anymore this week.  I already have appointments on Monday and Tuesday.  That's going to mean my cleaning gets pushed to the late afternoon.  Oh well that is par for the course for me on a holiday week.  I just know that Thanksgiving will go great anyway.

Christmas findings....

Well my oldest ruined part of Christmas.  Last night he found the stereo we bought him for Christmas.  Now I'm bummed.  He loves it though.  That is a good thing.  I'm looking forward to actually give it to him.  I know I am extremely happy with my Christmas gift since I got it early.  I got my laptop for Christmas.  I love it.  It has made my life so much easier.  I can work from anywhere now and I love that. 

Otherwise I think we are going to have an awesome Christmas.  The boys are getting bikes and a new game system for Brett.  This is going to be an awesome Christmas for the boys.  I got Bill his two new accounts and the upgrades for them for Christmas.  He is happy now.  He's loving it.  He has everything he really wanted for Christmas as far as I can tell.  We'll have a happy day.  I know I want to set up my laptop to video tape the whole morning.  That should be fun.  I will like it having the morning taped on my comp.  That will be great.  I will of course also be video taping the whole morning with our camcorder.  It will be great for us.  The technology will be over flowing come Christmas morning. 

Homework, homework and more homework.......

So far I have spent 2 hours working on homework with my 1st grader tonight.  I think this is ridiculous.  There is no reason for a 6 year old to have 2 hours worth of homework and still be working on it.  Granted the last of the homework is just coloring, but still that's a long time.  I really feel sorry for him because he struggles so much in school.  But finally on Monday he will start some special education classes so that may help him to get through it better. 

In other fronts I have done a ton of Christmas shopping so far and I'm still not done.  I have to finish getting bikes for the boys and pick up bedding sets to go with the 2 little ones now sharing a room.  I am loving it.  I just hope that Brett does ok on his first night in his new bed.  I am truly tired of sleeping with him at this point.  There is no reason that he can't be in his own bed except for daddy.  Daddy has kept him with me for the last year.  It is driving me nuts.  He tosses and turns soooo much at night that he really keeps me awake. 

I also need to get back to writing.  The whole idea of the laptop was so that I could write more and now I have virtually NO time to write.  I need to come up with some good ideas and go with it.  I'm sure that once things calm down a little bit I will get back to writing.  I always have trouble  writing around holiday time because I just get sooo busy with school and everything else. 

Life is grand one moment and a bitch the next....

Bill finally got his disability...that's the good news.  The bad news is that Roy has decided to lie to us once again.  I am exstatic about Bill's disability because we have fought so hard for it for so long, but on the other hand I am also very dissappointed in my son.  I really wish he would straighten up and fly right.  Now I have to sit and listen to Bill bitch him out for days on end.  I'm tired of hearing that too.  It's a pain in the ass. 

Now I am just looking forward to Christmas and getting my new laptop!  Bill already promised it to me for Christmas!  Yay!!!!  Otherwise we are just going to have a great Christmas all the way around for one year.  I am so looking forward to it.  We haven't had a nice Christmas in a long time.  Now we will be having a great one.  This is so awesome! 

Greiving.....

Everyone grieves in their own way. For me it is writing about the person so here goes. I just got the call a few minutes ago that my Grandpa passed away. We knew it was coming since Sunday, but still I will greatly miss this man. He was always kind and loving to everyone he encountered. He adored my three boys beyond compare. The world is definitely a lonelier place today. My family has lost it’s patriarch and a wonderful person. He had light in his soul and always had something good to say to everyone. He will be greatly missed in the weeks, months and years ahead.


My Grandpa was a gentleman through and through. He was kind, loving and gentle all the time. He cared deeply about all of us “kids” as we were so lovingly called. He joked and laughed with all of us about even the most trivial of things. Soon he will be an angel watching over all of us again.

His last wishes were that there be no funeral, no showing and no one grieving for him. While he will get the first two of his wishes….we will still all grieve for our loss. I wish I had the words to make my Mom and Dad feel better right now, but there isn’t much I can say to them to make it right. We knew he was closing in on the end for some time now. In his final days he suffered great pain and anguish…now he may rest in peace.

We all love you Grandpa and always will.

Grandpa Maxwell.....

Just got the news yesterday that my Grandpa isn't going to make it through this time.  He has had a stroke, there is blood in his bladder and there is fluid in the heart and lungs.  Mom and Dad brought him home to try to make him comfortable in his last days, but today his breathing has gotten really shallow.  We don't expect him to last much longer.  In a way this is a blessing for him.  Right now he is suffering in horrible pain and passing would take that away for him.  I will be very sad to lose such a sweet man from my life, but in his best interests the sooner the better.  He is my step-Grandpa but I have always considered him my Grandpa just the same.  He is a sweet, funny man and I will always treasure the time I had with him.  Bless this sweet man for the loving way he lived his life and his sweet demeanor to everyone around him.