Weight issues again....

Well I know I am overweight. Unfortunately I have a riduculous hubby that won't stop bugging me about it. He nags at everything I eat. It doesn't matter that I only ate a bowl of cereal one day....he had to nag about eating cereal. That's all I ate all day long. Granted yesterday I ate a bit more than I probably should have, but I'm also in that phase of my period where I could eat constantly. Ugh....I hate it and I hate my hubby for treating me like crap all the time. He's overweight too so he should just shut the hell up. He ridicules me, humiliates me in front of other people, and is highly emotionally abusive. I don't see a point in even talking to him let alone sleeping with him. He wants sex constantly and can't figure out why I'm not interested. Duh.....maybe if you weren't an asshole all the time I would be. Maybe if just for once he did something to make me feel good instead of feeling like shit all the time I would like sex again. At long as it has been I doubt it though. It would take an aweful lot to make me want sex again at this point. He is just plain mean and blames it all on us. If we did the right things he wouldn't be that way. If we didn't lie to him he wouldn't be that way. Well if you don't lie to him you can't live your life at all. He doesn't like anyone going to the library, going shopping, eating unless it is dinner time, getting an attitude, raising our voices (although we have to or he won't shut up long enough to listen to us), lying, playing on the computer, etc., etc., etc. His list of don'ts is so long no one could live by it and still not commit suicide. Just because he doesn't like something.....we aren't supposed to like it. It took me three years to get him to accept that our oldest son loves to play football. Even now though he gives me grief about taking him to practices. I just hate, hate, hate it all. And Gaia only knows that his unemotional nature means he won't listen to us and can't be really reasoned with. It just has to be his way.......period. Well to hell with that. I can't live that way....so instead I want to kill myself because I have someone so far up my ass all the time about everything I do that I just can't cope any longer. I truly and totally hate men now. They are ignorant, assinign creatures that the world would be better off without.